Trip to forrest!!

Today was finally the the day when i went in the forrest. Its a big deal..cause im in Tartu, and every time i watched out of the window i saw this beautiful awesome forrest, and i was always thinking that one day i want to go there. So today i did but not alone.I went with Ruuben. He’s an awesome company. And the forrest was great, there was this awesome road going trough the trees and it was so green out there…and i was telling to Ruuben “Just look how green everyhing is” And Ruuben was like “IT REALLY IS”
It was just so awesome and great. Me and Ruuben ended up walking like almost 2 hours. Its crazy, cause Ruuben is only two years old and he did it. What a great guy he is. After that long walk we ended up at the playground just swinging for a bit. After a while we went inside. And Ruuben was so tired that he fell asleep his head on my shoulder. It was a pretty great day.
Tartu forrest is awesome.

A day!

It’s Thursday morning, and im up with Alex, who’s sick at home.
Im still exhausted, cause yesterday was just too long for me.
So, funny stories, weird cause theres always a funny story, with me in it. I guess ill just write that down again..

Yesterday I went to Rakvere, not to mention it was my first time after 8 months, i think the last time i went to Rakvere was at Kaidi’s wedding. And dude, that was like last summer in July, crazy.
So anyways, me in Rakvere. I went with Koit cause he had some stuff to do there also.
Okay, we wake up like really really early, like 5.30am, it is early for us still, specially me who hasn’t woke up that early since forever. Anyways, we drank ourcoffe and all of a sudden we were in a hurry, big time hurry dude. So we just had to make it quick, i crabbed random shoes and my coat my bag and we were already walking. So while we were walking at the bus stop, i felt that my legs were hurting slightly, wasn’t that big deal at the time..and there’s a saying in estonian “Ilu nõuab ohvreid” to translate it straight i think it would be “Beauty demands victims or to be beautiful you have to sacrifice something, well my legs in that case” or what ever. Anyways, the more me and Koit walked the more my legs were hurting, well feet or what ever. And i said to Koit “Dude, I think i put the wrong shoes” all Koit did was just laughing at me, cause seriously i can’t imagine how funny that was to him. Okay, somehow we made it to the bus stop, yay.
But when we arrived to Rakvere, i seriously couldn’t walk, it was like 100 metres to the Rakvere bus stasion from the bus we came off, and dude, i just couldn’t walk, Koit was like, whats wrong and stuff, and i was like ” Koit i can’t walk, my legs are hurting so bad and i can’t walk!!!” Yeah, it was pretty funny to Koit how i almost started crying cause my legs were hurting.so i was like ” Koit it’s not funny, you should try my shoes on, and see how nice it is to walk with them then”
Okay anyways, i walked those 100 metres to the bus stasion and just sit down, and didn’t know what to do, cause we had like a whole day planned, and theres was a lot of walking in that plan. So, i called mom, and i was like “Mom, im dying, sos, 112″ So i told mom, that those shoes i put on this morning are killing me and i can’t walk and stuff. It was actually moms idea that i should buy new shoes. She was like “How are you gonna walk around the city when your legs are hurting, well feet or what ever.” And the end of the call mom was like “Survive the day, ill see you at home later”
What can i say, mother knows best, right.
So we decided to continue the day ill have to buy new shoes, well sneakers or something, but all the shops and malls and stores and stuff are not opened untill 9am, we arrived to Rakvere like 7.30, so we just waited, we went to this cafe in Rakvere what was open already and sat there till 9. So after that we just bought new sneakers, PINK ones, that turned out great. And i was able to walk again, in that moment you guys don’t have no idea how great it felt to be able to walk again. Im telling you, weird things are happening to me, just cause of my silly-ness.
Pretty weird start to the day, after, i went to my old scool i attended and took papers out of there, saw some old teachers, and one teacher didn’t remember me and was like ” Who are you?” And i was like ” No One”, saw some old classmates, saw friends i haven’t seen like a year, hang around city with Koit. Oh, and one of my friends who found out that im a Christian just freaked out and thought im not able to use facebook and donate blood now when im a Christian, it was quite funny.
And then at some point I got home with Koit and i was exhausted, and when mom saw me she was like ” You survived” And i was like, ” I survived but my legs didn’t, haha”
And then i took a nap..and then it was the end of the day.
THE END!!!!

”Being Happy” isn’t suppose to be a challenge.

So today i just decided to be happy. Not thinking about problems and stuff whats pulling me down. It was a good day. Really good actually. I spent the morning and afternoon with Doris and Mr.Ruuben. It was quite fun. After a while I went to church, to LTC meeting, what started at five. I took the bus to city and arrived in time. And we had fun, singing after singing after singing and others did the other stuff later, puppets and drama and everything else. So when the meeting was over, i headed back home, and thinking about taking a bus, well that didn’t happen. Mihkel was with me and talked me over, to not take the bus home, cause lets be honest, it was a beautiful warm spring day. So i thought, why not to just walk that 45 min to home, and believe me i don’t regret it. After not being able to walk home like 5 months it was a blessing. Me and Mihkel walked down the Kanali, and the water is still covered with ice, but the sand was awesome, we walked exactly next to Kanali, and there’s like this mini beach with sand and everything, and i always took that way when i use to walk home. And today when we walked there, i just realized why i fell in love with Tartu, its gorgeus, and i saw like hundreds of birds flying over the water, well ice, and birds are awesome specially in Tartu. Mihkel send me to little more than half of the way home and then went back with a bus. It was awesome, and im so glad i didn’t take the bus home. This walk was so worth it. And thinking about it now, it really does matter, to be happy or not. Being happy makes everyone else happy, i just proved that to myself today.

Ps! I love Tartu church family. They are so great.

I can do better.

LIFE! We all have one. We can choose how to live it, what to accomplish.

Ive been having not-so-good past few days. Im feelin down and low, maybe a bit cause of the people around me, i think it’s right when people aren’t happy around you, you are just not feel being happy either. And I should be HAPPY more. And partly cause i feel so far away from friends who actually are far and who I haven’t talk for so long that it makes me think, do they even remember me, like maybe if they’ve forgotten me, or maybe I was mean or mad at them at some point, and even though i didn’t mean to be, they still think less of me. Or maybe it’s spring what is pulling me down or a fact that Im such a loser of doing choices about my life.

My life, it got me thinking. What is my life? Am I living a good life? Am I being, a good sister, aunt, friend, babysitter..?

Well, I think i can always do better. And I should start with me-being-mad-or-mean about everything and being more happy. Everyone is not knowing, that there’s always a reason why im like that, mean or mad, or grumpy. It’s like my shield. When ever Im mad or mean or something like that, then im just hurt sometimes, broken, but i really don’t like others to see it, so Im hiding myself behind being-mean-or-mad. And Ive realized that Ive been mean or mad to my friends so many times with out any particular reason, thats the worst thing about me. Its like I can’t control it, its just hard and I should try harder.

Im really sorry, who i’ve been mad or mean at or something like that. I really don’t mean to be. Im just sorry that im ruing a good mood or someone’s happy face. And this half of the week I’ll try to do better, be better. I will try to Shine like a star. Learn from my mistakes.

Life is worth living, no matter what, even when im feeling low. IT IS. A great gift from God.

Cooking isn’t that hard anymore!

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So, i’ve been cooking at home like 3 days in a row, can you believe it! ME! NO!? Me either! It’s been fun actually, and i can actually cook, and i love the comments after! My food is good! And it’s so much easier when i’m just having fun with it, and just do it.

Today like other day, i was home with only Arvo, cause everybody else is in school and mom is at work, so it’s just me and my nephew, and today he helped me a lot, with cooking, he made it easier, cause it’s crazy to cook to so many people. I made the simple food ever, pasta, sauce and wiener. At first i decided to do the best sauce i can, white sauce, only sauce i can make. But this time i decide to put into my white sauce a bit onion and garlic, you don’t even imagine how hard is to slice and cut the onion or garlic, it made me cryyyy. So, I was busy with sauce and pasta and onion and garlic, and Arvo helped me out with wieners, what i was putting into sauce either afterwards. And man, the food turn out great. Then me and Arvo sat behind the table and ate that awesomely cooked and well turn out food! Nice day, eh!?

And YOU, Jaime Banks, you would of loved my White sauce with garlic and onions and stuff, it was way more better than it was when i made it at your place! I’ve learned to make my sauce better. I’m a learner! Hahaha! You don’t know what you missed pere konn!

Pretty much love home..

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I love home.
Ive been hangin out with little ones so much, it’s been fun, and the snow is awesome. Ive been cooking a lot, that’s fun, It was about time for me to learn how to cook.
Right now, i’m hanging out with Arvo, we are having so much fun, and i’m stick to the computer at the same time, playing computer games with Arvo, cause yeah, that’s the only thing i can do, i really hurt my back today, i was carring some wood and i guess it was too heavy, i’m such a weaky and i can barely move, so that’s not fun. I hope it will pass soon, cause i need to move around, fool around.

Home is great, people are great and cats are great, a dog too.
love, love, love!

Ans it’s so SPRING-Y outside!

Here and there…

Wow, ive been living in Tartu like 7 months, i remember talking to a friend the other day, and i said ive been living in Tartu like 4 months already, noup, i just didn’t actually realize that Tartu has been in my little life like 7 whole months, seriously where did this time go! It’s been fun though, still babysitting and stuff, hanging out with my church family once in a while, when i can get myself time, cause time is one thing i need more, or i just have to plan it better! I guess the second one! Anyways, babysitting is going well, Ruuben is my biggest and bestest and cutest friend ever, what can i say, he just gets me you know! I’m having so much fun with him, cause he is growing bigger and talking more, so yeah, we can make fun of each other!

Oh, i just remember that the other day i put Ruuben to his day sleep, and okay, it’s funny! I was suppose to sing to him, like i do everytime i’m putting him to sleep, he just likes it soo muuuch! So, instead of singing this time, i figured out what to do! Ruuben really likes the band One Direction, seriously he is listening their songs everyday with me, and i guess, he likes the band cause of me! Anyways, so this afternoon i thought i’m not gonna sing to him, instead of that i opened my phone, and put One Direction songs to play, so i didn’t have to sing and he got to listen his favourite band while he fell a sleep, seriously best idea ever, well that’s what i thought at first, okay, he was like already sleeping, and then, he decided that it’s not a good idea that the songs are coming from the phone, so i ended up singing him anyways! He is right, why do we need phone to sing when theres ME! He fell aslpeep adventually!

On Friday I got to come home again, it’s been really nice cause, ive got to come home way more often, and it’s so good to me! I came with a bus. 2 and half an hour of bus ride! I actually almost miss the bus in Tartu, i’m telling you, i should plan my time better, i was literally running to the bus, Yay i made it! So, the bus was so full, luckily there was a free seat next to one guy! So i asked him, can i sit next to him, like was this seat taken, he said i can sit! And it got me thinking, that we are total strangers sitting next to each other but not talking at all, how weird is that, like the whole bus is full of strangers, and they are sitting next to each other, talking nothing! Well i think it’s weird, so in my mind i tought next time i’m gonna sit next to stranger people, i’m gonna just start talking to him/her, well i could of do that this time, but i was too shy, i’m a shy person, everybody knows. Anyway. i sat next to this guy, like maybe 1 and an half hour, talking nothing, i’m listening music with my headphones, and he is doing the same. So he got off at some point so yeah all the akwardness was over, but i think we should get to know each other more. So after a while. when i was pretty close to home already, this drunken guy got into bus, and i was like, i hope he is not sitting next to me, cause bus was practically empty and there were lots of free seats were to sit, but guess what, he sat next to me, i was listening music with my headphones still, and he was like, can i sit here, i didn’t say nothing cause well i have some bad memories with drunken people, so i was still listening music and he sat next to me, i don’t know why, maybe cause i was like it’s weird when strangers are not talking to each other while sitting next to each other, i guess i got what i wanted, so this drunken guy was really annoying, he talked so much, so i just gave up and stopped listening music cause there was no point of that. So he talked and talked and talked, and finally asked, why all the estonians are so sad and so i don’t know, like why are they like that while sitting on the bus, haha, i couldn’t really answer that, cause i really don’t know. I don’t hate drunk people, i really don’t, but it’s so hard to like them, and i didn’t like this drunk guy. Maybe i’m a bad person, but yeah. Drunk people just don’t think what their doing, i’m afraid of them, really.

So, after a while he got off, i was pretty okay with that.
When i got off, Koit was waiting me at the bus stop, and i just smiled big, i was really happy to see him, my best buddy.
We walked home, and it’s still so winter at home, crazy, theres like spring in Tartu already, weird eh? and i thought Estonia is small.
I got home, and it was so good too see the smiley faces, what looked right to me. I was fooling around with little ones, a lot, i just love it, and Arvo, my other nephew was here too, the one i was babysitting also when he was younger, it was good to see him, i really hadn’t seen him a while. He wanted to hang out with me all the time, well everybody wanted, thats what i love most about them, they all want to hang out with me, and i feel like a big sister….yay.
And Teele made a huge suprise by coming home, like nowhere, she just came, nobody knew she was coming, what a suprise that was.

Today has been good too, the fact that me and the little ones are participating on LTC this year, i had to teach them The Bible Reading, cause they are doing it, for sure. And i was doing that last year, so i knew how it’s done. Today, we looked up, and searched what should they read, we find something to everyone, even Agne, yes she is doing the Bible Reading also, she was doing so good, I think she will be the cutest person reading the bible there. Definately!

It’s good to be home, i will be around for a while, and i’m sure i will have lots and lots more fun with them.

I love my family!